Week 6: Realization: This is for a lifetime, not just 12 weeks

Current Weight: 111.3kg
Weight loss to date: 2.8kg

This week has been a bit mixed emotionally. Mid way through the week I was very unmotivated. Perhaps it was because of the school holidays and I was out of routine, but I found I was looking for excuses not to go to the gym. Having said that I did still got to the gym 5 times, but without my usual enthusiasm.
Monday Water Workout
Tuesday CX Works/Body pump
Thursday Gym Program
Saturday Small Group Training
Sunday Swim 1.25km + 15 minutes water exercise
I found the small group training the hardest and half way through just wanted to leave but after a few tears I pushed through it. We actually got to do some boxing which I have never done before and could imagine I could come to enjoy it.
Saturday night I was wondering how I was going to maintain this. The changes I am making are not just for this 12 week program, but I want them to be lifestyle changes. Thinking about going on forever the way I have for the past 6 weeks is a bit overwhelming. And I shed more tears. I felt like I wanted to go back to be sedentary lifestyle: sitting, reading, eating, crafting, working, and sleeping. I needed to get some motivation and I got some by digging to the back of my wardrobe. I tried on clothes that I had outgrown but couldn't throw away, just in case I could ever fit back into them. This was a great motivator as I found tops, jeans and bathers that I hadn't worn in at least 5 years that fit!!!!! To top the week I lost 1.4kg so I'm feeling much better and ready for week 7.